24 May 2011
Okay well, tomorrow I meet with my surgeon again. I'm crossing fingers and holding out hope that he'll tell me I'm on the waiting list for reconstruction. This is my little light in the long dark tunnel - having my body restored...well as much as possible anyway. I'm also keen to ask about the possibility of having my right breast removed as well, and how that works into the plan to give me nice normal, as symmetrical as possible boobs. I'm asking this because the nature of my cancer was aggressive. Being a rare diagnosis - with it being lobular and Her2+ means that I could be a good candidate. Or so I was told.
Before that meeting I'm also scheduled for an ultrasound and a routine mammogram. NOT enthused about the mammogram one tiny wee bit. The good part of that is that there is only 1 boob they have to squash. Sorry men out there.
The reason I'm having the ultrasound is because they did find a small possible cyst or fibroadenoma when I had my last MRI . This was also there last year before treatment so its not a worry - if it was cancer it would have been affected by the chemo and it hasn't changed since last year. Regardless, I'm still super nervous and I find myself second guessing them. What if they decide its not a cyst (as that's what we thought my cancer was last year) and want to take a biopsy. Will I fall apart? I'm getting myself a little worked up about it already see?
So, if you like...can you just say a little prayer for me tomorrow...for peace mostly. That whatever happens I will be okay?
Anyway...I'll let you know how it goes.