One of those days...

I woke up this morning with an instant sense of panic and disorder that failed to subside as the day progressed. It all started with a frantic dream where we turned up to the airport for our flight to Chile and I had left the passports at home. A two hour one way trip at home. Last week it was a dream about turning up without having packed our suitcases.

I'm obviously having sub conscious panic attacks about this impending trip and making sure we have everything together.

So the morning went on until Johnny couldn't find his schoolbag and after much searching and turning the house upside down he remembered he left it outside the school gates yesterday afternoon. He had wandered off from me and I had been spending a good portion of time looking around the school for him so in my relief (and anger) at finding him again the bag was left forgotten. Until this morning.
Leaving the house early so we could search for the bag, I prayed the entire trip it would be still sitting there having spent a lonely night on the side of the road. But it was gone. This is SUCH a hassle. We have a week to go, finances are tight and factoring in a new school bag, lunchbox, swimming gear etc was just something my brain is normally something I can take in my stride but right now my brain is not equipped to deal with it. A drive to Tauranga to replace them is a major pain in the neck. I packed him off to class, checked in with the office, scoured the lost property, no sign of any bag. So I drove home, rather hassled, flustered and dejected. I prayed that someone had found it and hadn't turned it into the office yet, I just really needed this small miracle to happen.

5 minutes later the school rang and told me a member of the public handed it in after rescuing the bag last night. My faith in humanity is restored and my faith in God remembering the little things which are important is renewed. I know some of you reading this might put it down to coincidence, perhaps so, but this for me is just what I needed this week, to be reminded that I'm not in control. Sometimes I need to let go and ride the wave...